Being confined to home and feeling like total crap, not to mention numbing hands and the ever increasing swollen feet, leaves me to resort to "self-entertainment." But what exactly is that? Well, writing on my blog for one, checking all my friends blogs, and numerous other random things. I feel as though my days are slipping by slowly. Knowing that each one is the last I'll have w/out a baby gives me a sense of sadness and excitement all at the same time. Strange mix of emotions. One minute I can't stand it and am begging this little boy to come out, the next I'm thinking... "Why am I rushing this? After the birth, I won't be able to just sit and watch my favorite show any old time I want or run out to the store to grab something!" So all you mothers out there sympathize I'm sure. Well, I figure I've waited long enough and had a quite memorable past. I don't feel like there is much I haven't done that I wanted to. I'm happy w/the place I am in my life. I look forward to this new, challenging season. God give me strength :o)
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Hey you! I have enjoyed checking out your blog--this is it. This could be your last Saturday without a child. I remember thinking that and not really knowing how to process it--your brain hasn't gone there yet--there in no wrinkle (brain terms) to find your way back to and "know" what comes next --how fun is it to experience something new at 30! The whole definition of who you are is about to be redesigned-rewritten-I love it!
Hang in there! Once you see that little face stare right back at you, all the pain is worth it. Of course once they get a bit older, you might use it as a reminder for them of what you went through to bring them into this world :) Just kidding, but the thought is there :) You'll be fine! I still sit in awe of how much life has changed and who I "am" has forever been changed (just as onehotpotato :) said).
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