i come to realize more and more everyday that my intentions serve no real purpose. i always have lofty intentions of accomplishing so much! i even have a carefully thought out to do list that i revise and update daily. oh look at me! yet something always happens. something LIKE, i don't know.....a long, slow line at walmarts' customer service that you spend 1/2 an hour in or getting your child down for their regularly scheduled nap takes an HOUR and A HALF, or maybe dog poo. yeah, you get home and open that garage door and a distinct, familiar smell seaps in through the vents and you see it! your dog has gotten sick ALL over the garage floor in his kennel! you think, why me? so you spend 30 mins cleaning that up! OR maybe it's gum! yes gum. like when you do a load of laundry and you start to pull the clothes out and the distinct smell of a "minty freshness" appears and you think to yourself, "that's not possible, my detergent is fruity." then you see it. that little tiny piece, wedged in the sleeve of your husbands shirt. then you look closer...aaahhhh! it's everywhere. so you spend the next 20 mins of your day (which was carefully planned to be doing someting completely different)getting it out of the clothes so as to not miss one bit of it for fear of it imbedding itself into the item permanently in the hot dryer!
so i have to let it go...go with the flow....as my sister in law so WISELY puts it...something's gotta give. and i guess that something is my intentions. my ideals. my expectations. but it's not fair! i don't want to let them go. they are mine and i work so hard at carefully organizing them into little lists.
oh well, it's life and very quickly after a couple days with your new little one, you realize just how important this choice is! and you will be reminded everyday for the rest of your life by that little person. something's gotta give and it won't be that baby so it has to give somewhere else. so i guess when gum or dog poo happens to you, you can remind yourself that you are not alone!
3 comments:
i love this post. you are so funny. i can sooooo relate (although you may have me beat on your obsessiveness with long detailed lists....) but generally speaking you could have been talking about me on any given day!!!
that "something's gotta give" mantra comes in real handy doesn't it? i say it all the time... just to remind myself that at this point in time, in history, i have to put my time in just like everyone who went before me... and when it comes to doing "the kid thing" right... something or someone else has got to stand down.
that, my fellow mother, is the biggest concept we have to wrap our brains around. i have been in this parenting gig now for a little over 3 years and i don't feel like i have a strong handle on it yet. but, one of these days i will get there....and you will too.
the best is yet to come... i just know it. that's why we have all our strong young mother's around us for....to cheer us on and let us know "this too shall pass".
great post sista!
I don't envy you the gum situation. Yuck... but I totally relate to your post. I have such a hard time when my "plans" are interrupted, changed, or postponed. My mind and heart take time to adjust and sometimes there just isn't the time to adjust - things change quicker than that!
Someone once told me that God was always interrupted when He walked the earth. I try to remember that and it truly helps sometimes.
great post! I know how you feel even though I don't have a husband, dogs or a baby. My time getts eaten up by...I don't always know, but half the time my list doesn't get accomplished.
I hope that your day is more productive!
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