i'm not sure how god saw me worthy to have such a wonder. even as rich and i have faced some difficult circumstances the last couple of months, it's as if god has said to me "i know things are hard. but i'm still god. i'm still in control and in spite of it all, your true treasure and blessing are in this gift i've given you." and a gift he is. he's the most wonderful thing i've ever known. i never knew my heart could ache w/love for something so curious, misunderstood, and yet so simple. i'm working on understanding his needs. it's a constant effort, but one i live for each day. I LOVE his little personality, his smile, his cry, his little bum, his smell, his sweet little feet(which i can't kiss enough), his sensitive disposition, the way his little lips purse together-nostrils flare-and the grunt that comes just before he poops. i love it all! this week he's been sick and nothing hurts me more than to see him in discomfort. but i am greatful for the opportunity to care for him. nothing brings me more pleasure (even every two hours throughout the night if that's what it takes). his fragile little body...being nurtured by mine. what a miracle. thank you Lord. thank you for loving me enough to give me something so amazing. thank you for letting me experience just a fraction of what you feel for me.
***new pics added to "my joy" slide show
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You will never ever be the same. And you'll never wish you were. :)
HIS love continues to flow strongly. His love flows down to me and my love to you and your love to Rykon. His love is the wonder of it all.
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